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As we journey through life, our dreams shift. I once dreamt to...

Sat, 29 Sep 2012 05:20:00 -0400

As we journey through life, our dreams shift. I once dreamt to be a singer.. Now one of my dreams is to realise the dreams of others. I first met this young girl when she was 13, a shy one.. Now she’s about to turn 17.. I pray that she realises that those wings growing on her back are made to fly and that it’s about time they do that.

\m/

Sun, 26 Aug 2012 05:37:04 -0400

\m/

Timing

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 16:01:37 -0400

Isn’t it ironic that when you’re finally facing something you’ve been running away from, and it’s now out of reach? As much as I wish you were much earlier, nothing is going to change between us now. You will always be one of my most cherished friends.

Why didn’t I tell you about my life, you asked.. That’s because I didn’t feel the need to.. Are you suddenly interested to get to know me again just because you heard I nearly died last year? What if I did? What would you do? :) What could you do?

Perhaps when you’ve learnt to truly love those whom I love and at the same time love me beyond what you see, then we can talk..

You’re 9 years late, dear. I can’t let you in anymore..

God = Allah. Enough said.

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 10:25:00 -0400

Something interesting happened to me today that made me think about how we all view God sometimes. I haven’t gone back to my hometown church for awhile and I was given the privilege to co-lead worship yesterday and tomorrow and I am excited of course. I chose to sing a Malay song for yesterday’s healing rally and will be singing the same song tomorrow morning. We had music practice earlier on and I received some feedback after that. Apparently, some people in the congregation felt uncomfortable with a certain word used in the Malay song I sang yesterday. I was not surprised when it turned to be the word Allah.

Once again, we’re brought back to the whole argument about the word Allah, which literally means GOD in the Malay language. Somehow I find it amusing that people still have this misconception towards the word Allah. It’s even more amusing when it comes from some of the people in church. Usually, I cannot be bothered by what people think because I will not change the name of God in whatever language that I sing in, but this time, we decided to change the word to Tuhan, which means Lord/Rabbi. We did this to keep the peace in the church that I no longer attend regularly because I work in another state. It is not worth creating division over one word and it was the worship leader’s decision, so I will respect that decision. A decision I disagree to.

This made me think… Why are we uncomfortable calling God who He is? Are we ashamed? Are we afraid to acknowledge Him for who He really is?.. God has never called me by any other name than the one He gave me; His child. He doesn’t call His slave or staff or worker or client. He calls me His CHILD. How then can we substitute God’s name, and with what?! He said it Himself, “I AM WHO I AM”, so who are WE to change that? Oh my gosh… My heart is swelling even as I am typing this. If WE as children of God, are not sure of who He is and we cannot/dare not even call upon the name of God just as He is, then what is the point, really? Will you call your own earthly father by any other name than his own? Hmm.. It’ll be interesting to try that someday and see what comes out of it.

I understand when the world doesn’t understand.. It is discouraging when God’s people don’t understand and don’t know His name. It’s even worse when we know His name and we’re afraid or ashamed to use it… Having said that, I will not compromise God’s name for people, I will tell the worship leader that I will not sing the song any other way because I will not replace the name of God with any other word but the RIGHTFUL one.

He is my Father and my God, I will not trade His name for anything.

Kau yang terindah

Di dalam hidup ini

Tiada Allah Tuhan yang seperti Engkau

Besar perkasa penuh kemuliaan

Kau yang termanis

Di dalam hidup ini

Ku cinta Kau lebih dari segalanya

Besar kasih setiaMu kepadaku

Ku sembah Kau, Ya Allahku

Ku tinggikan namaMu selalu

Semua lutut ‘kan bertelut

Menyembah Yesus Tuhan Rajaku

Ku sembah Kau, Ya Allahku

Ku tinggikan namaMu selalu

Semua lidah ‘kan mengaku

Engkaulah Yesus Tuhan Rajaku

True beauty can only be seen with the heart… (Taken with...

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 03:29:28 -0400

True beauty can only be seen with the heart… (Taken with Instagram)

Sorry I've been boring.

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 19:49:53 -0400

what can i say?… it’s life.

Well said. Please wake up. (Taken with Instagram at Cempaka...

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 13:29:02 -0400

Well said. Please wake up. (Taken with Instagram at Cempaka International Ladies’ College)

Seven seeds. Very nice :) (Taken with Instagram at Patricia...

Sun, 03 Jun 2012 20:17:59 -0400

Seven seeds. Very nice :) (Taken with Instagram at Patricia Coffee Brewers)

Night view of my workplace/hotel/third home/squash court (Taken...

Tue, 29 May 2012 21:28:46 -0400

Night view of my workplace/hotel/third home/squash court (Taken with instagram)

You got that right :) (Taken with instagram)

Tue, 29 May 2012 18:39:00 -0400

You got that right :) (Taken with instagram)

How I miss you :) (Taken with instagram)

Tue, 29 May 2012 13:35:30 -0400

How I miss you :) (Taken with instagram)

The story of my life.. Musically stimulated. (Taken with...

Tue, 29 May 2012 13:25:15 -0400

The story of my life.. Musically stimulated. (Taken with instagram)

Mission Squirrissible

Wed, 09 May 2012 12:44:22 -0400

Mission Squirrissible

:)

Wed, 09 May 2012 12:42:47 -0400

Time is running out.

As much as the future is unpredictable, I shall cherish the present.

Found a place but it’s not time to move on yet.. Well, at least I know it’s there when I have to.

lol.

Wed, 09 May 2012 12:20:02 -0400

lol.

Phoebs you rock my socks.

Wed, 09 May 2012 12:14:30 -0400

Phoebs you rock my socks.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you..."

Wed, 09 May 2012 12:12:00 -0400

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Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.

Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest

Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will He clothe you—you of little faith!

And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well. Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom.

Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

”

- J.C.

Too many thoughts for one night...

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 11:09:38 -0400

I wonder what God has prepared for me in the future…

I’m sure it’s something awesome :)

Run or stay?

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 14:26:03 -0400

Why do I feel that this is not it?
Something is missing and I cannot deny that I feel a little hollow within.

Lord, what is it that You want me to do? I’m getting so tired that I feel like running away..

Maybe I should.

Diploma Holders MY FOOT!

Sat, 07 Apr 2012 12:20:00 -0400

A close friend told me today that she was the only one in her class who refused to compromise to her classmates’ plan to cheat in their upcoming major internationally accredited examination. At the same time of being very proud of her, I was equally as shocked at the lack of integrity in the rest of them, and they are only in college.

Honestly, if you do not have the integrity to sit for a college examination truthfully, then what kind of people do you plan to be when you step into the real world? It disgusts me how people are willing to conform themselves to such a degrading level just to get what they want. You might think it’s alright to cheat since it benefits everyone in the class but at the end of the day, YOU DO NOT DESERVE good results because you DID NOT earn them. So are you going to cheat your way through life and live a big fat lie?

Personally, I’d rather fail than to cheat. If I fail because I did not prepare myself enough for the examination, then I deserve to fail. If I receive a distinction because I cheated, then I don’t deserve to be respected at all. How am I supposed to live a life pleasing unto God if I can’t even be truthful in an examination? How am I supposed to face myself even? I really don’t understand how this current society has made cheating such a norm. Well, I know I will not succumb to it and I pray that God will continue to give me the strength to do the right thing.

If I’m going to do badly in my exam, at least I’m getting what I deserve and not STEALING what I did not earn.

To those of you who plan to cheat, I may not know you, but SHAME ON YOU. I will not be surprised if the one who chooses to be truthful will achieve better results than all you cheaters.

Gah.